happy birthday to sher~~!!!

2011-09-15T14:49:00.003+08:00

sometimes i also dunno hw to bring across certain unhappiness to u... afraid that u might think that i am unreasonable... thus i can onli write here... to vent out my unhappiness... i just want u to know that if i am u... i will spend my time with u whenever i can... cos every 4 days we can onli meet 1 day.... its not lik u are not free or u meeting frens... but u are free... which makes me feel even more disappointed... issit really so hard to acc me ma? even if its just for a short while with u... i also dun mind... but if u think that this short while is so troublesome for u... den i also nth to say le... even my godpa also will ask y i nv go out... u are free i also free.. i also dunno hw to ans him... i can onli put on a fake smile and say u busy... well.... anyway i knw i say dun need u to come... cos i knw u feel troublesome... so i say no need... but if u realli gt heart... u still will come de... and u also knw that sometimes gals say no but infact its not a no.. u told me urself.... and everytime u say u knw u knw... wats the difference between u say u knw and nv do anything? i am trying my best to understand u le... but i am a gal too... juz a normal gal that need to be dote on and need her love ones to be by her side....

2011-07-28T09:01:00.004+08:00

Its being 2 months going 3 months i had nt touch my blog... its time to update some of the stuff... first let me put in some photos of me n dear dear =)

its really unexpected that we can still be tgt after so many things happen... first few months are sweet when we had the same shift and we can meet almost everyday.. but things changes after i am being transferred to another team... we tends to quarrel more... meet less... n its nt whithin our control that i changed team.. for me.. i think we shld adapt to changes.. maybe u feel insecure without me beside u but hope u can have more faith in me... i knw i had a bad temper but i am trying my best to curb le.. but i really dun like the quarrels we had cos sometimes i really dunno issit me being unreasonable or u are giving in too much and giv me a feeling that u juz dunwan to quarrel thus give in to me.. but den the prob will still be there n we will still quarrel over the same thing... i knw everything settled le... i shld nt bring up all this in here but i am nt trying to pin point any blame on any ppl... i just want to say out all my thinkings.. u knw gals are gals... tends to think alot.. n being emotional.. i admit to that cos i am a gal too.. i dunwan u to be demoralise by what had happened... i dunwan u to treat me differently... juz treat me lik hw u used to be... except for some parts la... lol.. sometimes i also misunderstand ur gd intentions... but maybe its cos the way u bring across to me.. so nw i am also trying to understand u so that we can have less misunderstanding and work tgt to build our family... Sorry for being too demanding sometimes and always wanted to find the root to every problem because i believed that if the roots of the prob is nt removed, it will grow again... i dunwan it to happen because i am afraid of losing u...

2011-05-12T13:57:00.000+08:00

hmm.... reminded by somebody that i had not being updating this blog for some time... haha guess its time to write something here... well looks lik i cannt write any bad things abt this somebody anymore in my blog liao... he will knw everything haha... but well it is also gd hah to let u knw wat is the unhappiness hor... rite??

So looking forward to my june outing to genting with my family and u... haha... hopefully its a fun one and i knw it will.. We had a long way to go.. hopefully this time round it wun disappoint me again......

2011-03-25T16:40:00.002+08:00

recently juz watched a show... only u... its abt wedding planner... nt bad.. quite nice and funny.. esp the song... touching also... in the show can learn alot of things also.. everything is destined... everything will come to u naturally... but we still need to fight for our own destiny cos i believe fighting will giv us the best.. take it as a little battle and we gain experience from it... i am also fighting hard for my own destiny...

having gastric pain juz nw... dunno y it relapse again.. after eating instant noodle then its better now... but nt hungry also muz force myself to eat... haiz... nw muz really eat properly....

2011-03-11T12:03:00.002+08:00

blogging today.... hmm... today is a cool and windy day... went breakfast with mother... maybe later gg take ang bao from father... lol... in need of money nowadays.... haiz.... but i am saving up for hokkaido trip on july.... hopefully i can save tat kind of money... nth much to write... cant think of anything nw... too tired...

2011-02-25T16:29:00.002+08:00

less then 24 hrs, we will be going to bangkok lo.... haha.... cant wait for the massage there... really needed it.....

well expected that everything will still turn out the same... fruitless effort again... look forward man...

ps: u are nt silly at all... cos someone is juz lik u... and tat someone is typing this... hopefully one day our efforts are paid off.. but then again.. if ur efforts are paid off.. it means mine is wasted... contridicting hah... haha...

2011-02-23T21:06:00.002+08:00

well days are getting harder... but still life needs to goes on... sometimes i really wish tat there is someone to be there for me tat i can trust and talk to for rest of my life... no matter wat happens there will be someone there to help me... haha... guess its nt time yet... no one giv me tis kind of feeling yet... so i still need to bear with it... haha... well alone also gd la but still when time goes by, there is someone by ur side is still the best...

waiting.... but i am nt young anymore... its time to get a steady relationship and move on to my next lvl in life...

2011-02-15T18:33:00.004+08:00

woots... happy valentine day ppl... i knw i abit late haha... no choice yesterday busy "working".. haha.... hmmm hopefully every couple enjoyed their day.... =) for me.. although no date but i still enjoyed haha.. flowers for v day =)))

today we juz had inservice and tgt with it we have service excellence event... hmm overall nt bad... we had nice performance and nice game booth =))) although we gt consolation for performance but we are still happy as everything ends smoothly and nice ... for game booth thx to everyone for the effort put in and we gt champion!!!! hahaha.... so happy...

2011-02-13T15:07:00.002+08:00

hmm... those going on date on v day.. remember to dressed up eh... u all knw.. when i asked somebody.. are u going to dressed up on v day, he say nope.. he asked wats the point of dressing up lol... well.. to make things clear... actually its the same theory as buying flowers... we dun need flowers.. but its juz sweet to see u guys spending the effort to buy flowers.. the thoughts... we also dun need u to be super dressed up... but at least spend the effort and let ur loved ones knw that she /he is impt thats y u are dressing up for him/her... its actually kind of respect for each other ba... do u all agree?? its really not about judging the looks... but first impression counts ma.... hmm... well... i guessed i really say till my saliva dry liao.. some ppl still wun understand de.... lol..... so forget it ba.... i wouldnt say if i dun care... maybe i dun have the right to care also... lol...

2011-02-07T21:03:00.003+08:00

happy cny to everyone out there!!! hmmm 1 yr passed juz lik tat again..... tat was fast... tats y ppl always say time dun wait... haha we wait for time...

v'day coming again... aww another lonely v'day for me hahaha... well its ok... i dun really mind... juz another day.. wish all the couples have a nice v'day =) hmm... as for me the best v'day i had is 6 yrs ago... although ended up quarrelling but well in the end we still had a nice v'day tgt.. this shows that its nt the event that matters, is the person that matters.... but of course since its a slightly more special day.. definitely all gals wan something... getting flowers really doen't matter but is the thought to get flowers for ur love one matters.. so guys out there... although the saying goes as long as u are with someone u love everyday is v'day.. BUT it does't harm to give ur love one slightly more special event on a slightly more special day.. =) action speaks louder then words k guys =) as for gals... i am sure the best present for them is to see u smile and spend the day happily with him.. hahaha no la its the same for gals.. surprise ur love one =D

2011-01-09T11:54:00.002+08:00

better in time.... everything will be better in time.... but seems lik its useless to me... times passes for many yrs... still everything remain the same.... well true love does exist.. but true love also ended up miserable... lol... maybe after going through the pain den ppl will cherish the person next to them.. but it will all be too late... time dun wait... it will nt reverse too... it will juz go on n on.. till everything become a history... well my most hated subject during sch...

2010-12-19T14:05:00.002+08:00

hi ppl i am back to blogging =) lets start off with some jokes to share... =)

doctor: hw? is the slping pills working??
patient: =( no.. every nite i was still woken up by my dog and cant get back to slp..
doctor: hmm... maybe u can try increasing the dosage to 2 pills per nite...
patient: WHAT!! it is already so hard to get my dog to eat 1 pill and now i still need to get him to eat 2??
doctor: =.=

NEXT...

patient: doctor doctor i wan to lose weight.. is there any fastest way to do it?
doctor: yes.. u juz need to do 1 exercise everyday..
patient(happy): =) only 1? okok wat is it?
doctor: everyday u juz turn ur head to left and to right again... do it many times..
patient: so easy?? okok but hw does it helps??
doctor: when someone offers u something to eat or want to treat u to eat u juz do this exercise till they gave up..
patient: =.=

hahahahahaha... guess wat all this is from a drama wor... funny rite.... well i trying to catch somemore funny lines and i will post it here k...

2010-11-30T20:57:00.003+08:00

finally finished my another fav hk drama... yi hai hao qing.... damn nice... at first i thought the ending is nt wat i wished for but in the end it turns out to be wat i wished for... hmmm... so nice... is there really this kind of love in life??? haha they spend their life tgt only when they are old.. wat if they are tgt when they are young? hmm... wouldnt them be wasting the time cos they nv cherish it when young... haha well.. watever it is... this kind of love is hard to find hah... tis is wat we really meant by gg through thick n thin, dead n live tgt.. lol... wat a happening life and destined to be tgt no matter wat n no matter hw long... haha... NICE!!

2010-11-19T11:34:00.002+08:00

haiz... i cant inmagine me saying no to something that i really wan... well n i did it... i guess the next time i can say yes is 1 or 2 yrs down the road or maybe no more... hopefully wat i am being told is all trustable... i dunwan this to be a regret in my life next time... so near yet so far... wat a decision i need to make... but a decision nt whithin my control...

2010-11-13T01:23:00.002+08:00

haiz.. first day of pay is always the day spending the most.. pay this pay that.. everything juz gone.... haiz!!!!! n its only the first day... 1 full month to another pay day again... -.- sian......

2010-11-10T10:37:00.002+08:00

well everything seems to go back to the same as last time.. hmm well nvm i am used to it.. i guess u are also used to it... watever it is life still goes on.... wat bothers me nw is tml!!!!! haiz.... i need to wear the indian costume and walk infront of sooo many ppl wtf.... seriously i juz want it over n done with... asap!!!!

i miss ice3 suddenly.. miss the ppl last time tat i work with... hmm.. although busy but happy... well.. things dun always go ur way i understand tis logic... but guess everything happens for a reason.. otherwise i will not be in tis line now n heading towards my dream... i really pray my dream come true next yr.... pls.....

2010-10-19T00:29:00.002+08:00

everything is over... i dun have any comments for this... hope u can get used to it and release me... loving some1 is nt to force tat person to be with u... there is no happiness in forcing... time for u to grow up.... persistant is gd sometimes but depends on situation.. it might become worse if u dunno hw to see the situation.. got to learn hw to let go...

2010-09-20T10:50:00.002+08:00

back from muar!! hmm actually tis trip let me see alot things.. i also dunno hw to explain.. dunno whether is gd or bad...

ok back to topic.. hmm muar gt nth much.. its juz like a small village and its juz lik kampong style like hw our great grandparents live be4.. hmm the food there also quite nice.. gt their own style.. i nv really get to try alot of the local food cos we dun hav veh n i paiseh to ask his relatives to keep fetching us here n there... so maybe next time if gt chance i will go back n we walk on our own.. tats when i will try all the nice local food haha... cheap somemore... but we need veh.. the cars there are super dangerous lol... they uz turn as they like.. if its in sing.. i think dunno hw many dispute is gg to broke out... to them is lik a norm tat they drive this way... oh ya n 1 interesting thing... over there fireworks is lik nth la they can juz put themselves... we can purchase n play but i dun hav the chance to also =( cos they say nw the police there very strict will catch lol...

ok la nth much liao.. tats all...

2010-09-15T09:51:00.002+08:00

y does it hav to turn out tis way? nw i finally understand wat is call front of hand n back of hand is my flesh.. wat she say is correct.. wat he say is also correct... i cant help either side... really cant have best of both worlds?

2010-09-14T00:59:00.002+08:00

hmm... time for some updates although i am damn tired... a tiring shift today -.- i guess my team ppl will knw y.. lol.. well.. actually its nt very busy but its juz tat hunger n tired plus busy comes tgt = bomb!! lol... wrong wire cut.. tats it... explode... dangerous... ok la after come home.. had dinner.. the bomb timer stopped... everything is back to normal... hmm...

last few days went to LK n met up with billy.. had a nice chat with him regarding marriage... LOL.. hmm i guess all guys had de same thinking.. maybe to guys.. marriage is something tat juz need to go through ceremony.. go through procedures n ta da tats it.. we are their wife... but to gals marriage is nt abt procedures n so... its abt trusting our happiness to another person.. n whether or not we are happy its all up to the guys already... but well after talking.. i get to knw better abt wat guys are thinking... n i guess guys also knw better wat gals are thinking.. tats y its always gd to hav mixture of gals n guys frens... u nv knw when u need advices from them.. oh well.. but seems lik i only knw hw to tacke others relationship but when it comes to my own.. i will get lost.. even though things might seems to be exactly the same situation as others tat i had tried giving advices be4.. its juz so different when it happens on ownself...

2010-09-09T20:35:00.002+08:00

back from marina bay sands hotel like 3 days ago? =) hmm.. a very nice place.. but super ex.. nth much actually only the sky park is nice.. other den tat nth liao.. n the swimming pool is nice... hmm.. although starting gt hiccups.. we quarrel again but so really small matter la.. luckily everything still goes smoothly n i manage to try out the swimming pool.. otherwise will be super wasted... hmm.. photos of the MBS hotel u can see it on my facebook =)

2010-08-31T09:59:00.002+08:00

pray** hopefully my uncle get out of all this trouble soon... he is a nice guy.. tis kind of things shld nt happen on him... seriously... hmm.... wat i can help i had already tried my best.. if i am a lawyer i will fight all de way for him... hmm.... but well.. hope everything ends welll now..

morning ppl... seldom blog in de morning... but since nth to do i shall juz write a few words haha... hmm yesterday was a bad day cos alot of things cock up for me.. alot of things i dun really knw hw to do.. somemore tired.. haiz.. really feel bad... well wats over is over hope it wun happen again... hmm.. i wanna go overseas!!! i wanna go back redang again... a relaxing place...

i wan play bball lol...

2010-08-29T09:31:00.002+08:00

wohoo 2 movies in one day haha... grown ups and expandable... expandable is gross but well its nice... grown ups is more of a comedy hmm but also nice la but if i can choose again.. i will choose stepup 3 instead... hmm.... hopefully by next sat there is still step up 3... so gonna watch since so many ppl say is nice lol...

2010-08-26T15:33:00.002+08:00

yay... deployment finished so happy.. finally can go back team.. i miss my team.. haha... miss working with them.. n miss ping pong.. haha... hmm everything is going smoothly for me nw.. =) hope it continue lik tis k... oh n happy bday to my buddy bing =) heheheh....

2010-08-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

finally is over!!!!! yay no more boring days for me.... finally can go back team already... happy =) i miss ping pong too.. lol.. so tired.. hopefully there is more off for us....

i wonder y every month we muz suffer tis kind of pain for gals -.- so torturing... already giving birth is a torture for us n nw plus tis kind of bloody days every month.. -.- cant we juz hav it relaxing... no pain or watsoever... -.-

2010-08-19T17:13:00.003+08:00

oh man.. tired from standing n enduring for nite shift... -.- another day tml.... tml still gt test -.- jia lat.. lik going back to sch lik tat... zzzz ok something to brighten me nw... going for sashimi buffet later haha.... i will eat as much as sashimi i wan..... wahaha.... tml den lose weight haha... ok i think nth much nw... juz hope tat this deployment will end asap....

2010-08-18T12:02:00.002+08:00

soooooooooooooo tired from the deployment.. -.- argh.... 4 more shift to go... haiz..... sianz.... stand n stand.... later nite shift again... -.- hw to survive????

argh.. another bad news... i think i am getting fat already.. -.- thx to some1 keep feeding me la... wa lao... cannt cannt... i muz really control liao.. no more late dinner..... but sometimes realli no choice..... hmmm.......... while writing tis i am actually eating fishball noodle haha... wtf.... ok i muz cut down liao... i will try....

2010-08-16T16:41:00.002+08:00

i juz realised for the month of july i did not blog anything... y ar? maybe too busy? i want to bring back tis blog to life nw... i shld start blogging again... cos tis blog is done by some1 special n close to me =) i really want to tat kind of bonding that we used to have last time eh.... but i knw its hard cos we both have our own lifes nw.. well doesnt matter as long as i knw all of us are doing well =) .... hmm ok let me see... things to update.... hmm... actually alot of minor things happen during month of july but i am quite lazy to update haha... maybe i shld juz updates the most recent ones ba.... going for deployment for YOG tml -.- sianz.... tats de most sian thing for my job... but well its still my job.. hope it ends faster....

i wonder when is our next quarrel again?? haiz seems to be quarrelling every 2 or 3 days in a week... sometimes i really think tat we shld nt be tgt so fast cos we dun understand each other so well yet... i dunno... but after each quarrel we will understand each other better but if we knw each other better first be4 tgt does tat mean tat we can avoid all those quarrels?? haiz... i really dunno when is the day tat both of us juz blow our top... maybe for nw we can let each other.. who knws as months yrs goes by.. who will bother? but i hope tat will nt happen... i dunwan us to take each other for granted... min respect muz be there... i dunno whether tis will last nt... its nt tat i dunhave confidence in our r/s but i seems to dun have much confidence in myself.... hmm.....

2010-08-15T11:34:00.004+08:00

saw my cousin photos wth her bf... so envy them... can see that her bf is realli some1 tat she rely on for life... stable n matured guy.. dote her... nw juz waitin for them to get married... well she is lucky i guess... having a complete loving family and a partner tat will care for her for life.... well cant be envy hah... its has being a long time since i blog... dunno wat to write already.. no mood.......

2010-06-12T17:23:00.002+08:00

y guys always lik to say n no actions?? cant they understand wat is call actions speak louder den words?? they really think that by saying sweet stuffs works??? gosh.... it only shows insincerity.. i have done wat i can to help u already... its really up to u nw to get back on ur on feet.... i had being through n understand... destroying urself is nt a solution but a stupid action y cant u juz understand??... suddenly a random msg n making ppl worry.... wth... n now nt even a thing went inside ur head after so many msges i sent out to u?? i juz wish for a reply from u... tats all...

2010-06-05T00:53:00.002+08:00

yeah when for the first lesson for muay thai.. quite fun actually... haha... but gt 2 big blue black on my leg =( damn pain.. tml still need to wear boots... but so long nv sweat so much liao.. but gt push up sia.. i cannt do too much later cannt find bf haha.. so next time when do push up i muz chao geng... hmm most prob i will continue cos realli very worth.. 100 nia den gt unlimited classes for one month.. wahaha... juz hope no more blue black again ba..

2010-05-27T01:53:00.003+08:00

wah guess wat i cook for the first time today.. i steam a fish and cook scramble egg.. although it look simple.. but it gives me the satisfactory =) so nice... haha... maybe will learn more next time... oh ya i might be going to learn muay thai... but dunno gt the money ma... hmm...

2010-05-24T01:17:00.003+08:00

wohoo back from redang... wah super relaxing sia... n the fireworks.. super nice.. juz above my head nia... i realli dun mind staying there for long.. but i think i will become super dark la... lol... i love de sea there... but it is also quite scary below cos i dunno gt wat creature under the sea... there is even small shark when we go snorkelling so maybe sooner or later they will grow up... n turn into big sharks... my shoulder is super burn now... worse den the puket trip.. but ok la.. fun.. the onli bad thing is we need to take more dn 10 hrs to get there... sian... in a bus... but if it is a snoozer bus still ok.. i dun mind... hmm had a crazy nite too... bar turn into dance floor.. haha... so like beach disco... whole body is aching now.. maybe due to dancing haha...
realli damn relaxing.. i dun mind going there twice every yr... hmm..... shun bian can see the leng zai there haha.. get to take photo with him... but he looks old... with the moustache...
photos uploading soon....

2010-05-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

its being so long since i last blog... getting lazy already.... today is really a happening day... encounter something more challenging.. subject trying to be funny and force need to be use... the first time i realli put force on the subject.. n den there we go again... 4th time.. -.- my swayness lik coming back -.- sianz sia.. somemore is my finishing work time i kanna de msg -.- but ok la during tat 1 hr talk quite funny... tcss... talk cock sing song.. funny...

yay going to redang lo... at least i can go there to relax relax after so many things had happen... its time to relax too....

2010-04-27T21:50:00.002+08:00

damn the longest 5 sec in our lives... -.- damn pain can... even leave a scar... tat feeling u will nv wan to get it again... swear.... finally its all over...
went to SGH again.. hmm... really hated hospital esp going alone... but no choice gt to visit my ah gong... he is going in n out so frequent.. better get well soon ah gong.. n my mother is getting more n more worse.. nv being coming back for each nite -.- dunno wat the hell she is doing.. make me pissed off only... haiz... dunwan bother abt her anymore...

i love tis song.. although its a old song but its nice... fixing a broken heart....
theres nth to say the day she left, just filled a suitcase full of regrets, i hailed a taxi in the rain, looking for some place to ease the pain. ohh.. then like an answered prayer, i turned around and found u there.
you really know where to start, fixing a broken heart, you really know what to do, your emotional tools can cure any fool, whose dream had fallen apart, fixing a broken heart.

2010-04-25T18:37:00.003+08:00

first of all happy birthday to eileen haha... wat a memorable 21st bday hah... haha... as 'memorable as mine' but i think more jia lat den mine.. HAHA thx to my 21 balloon haha... well well guess i cannt celebrate my bday anymore otherwise i will be 10 times as jia lat as those i made drunk.. lol.. common enemy for them.. lol.. suresh came too n he is crazy -.- make us cannt slp -.- lol scared to let him drink nw... omg...

oh ya n i cut my hair hope it looks better nw... hmmmm.... new hairstyle new life... =)

2010-04-19T18:08:00.002+08:00

oh man so long nv update liao... hmm.. also dunno wats there to update nowadays... going work in lik 5 mins time.. but its raining heavily.. -.- dunno hw to go.... haiz...
tml is the date line already... wonder hw... money is really the root to all problems... fuk up.... gt money also fan no money also fan... wtf..... government hdb also need to wait.. -.- wait till dunno when sia.. till we slp at the street ar... -.- fuk up....

2010-04-05T13:21:00.002+08:00

ok lets start updates... hmm after come bck from puket became sick -.- dunno y my immune system so lusy nw.. jia lat... but still went work and was so damn sick and my fto had to take care of me lol.. ok but well its over... as fit as a bull nw haha...

went indra wedding after nite shift... wah he looks cool man with de sabre with him haha... den after tat went jj house too see see look look... damn nice la... its a government condo.. the scenery damn nice... hw i wish i gt a house there too... haiz.... talk abt house my head is so big... haiz... wat to do.. but i was super tired went home n slp straight away till today afternoon... woots... so damn long haha... but was woken up by some1 msg -.- anyway tats abt all for tis pass few days...
i want to watch train the dragon... alot ppl say nice... hmm.... long time nv go ice3 already... shal go down soon...

2010-03-30T02:29:00.003+08:00

wohoo just came back from puket... we all agree that the holiday stay there is too short haha.. if there is more time confirm more enjoyable... but well overall still enjoyed la but abit rush for almost everything and make the wrong decision wasting some money -.-

ok lets start.. first day nth much... cos by the time we reached already dinner time.. den went for some shopping but i am juz too tired to shop so i juz walk around with them lik a zombie haha..

2nd day need to wake up damn late sia.. well definitely all late haha.. went for island hopping.. didnt expect it to be quite fun esp the snorkelling part and the speed boat haha... snorkelling saw alot of fishes swimming around me and some even bite me damn.. but juz small fishes.. doesnt harm u... and the speed boat is super exciting haha.. esp me sitting at the front.. if nv hold on tight maybe will juz fly out haha.. nite went for dinner of seafood... nt tat nice.. hmm den went for tiger show.. tats is the worst event ever.. didnt wan to go but gt to follow the majority but who knws all regret going haha.. bascially watching some naked gals and some performance by them.. quite amused by hw they managed to do the special performance.. dunno hw to describe also but well wun ever wan to go again.. me n some walked out halfway and went for thai message =) tats the best part haha.. cos i can fell asleep... super nice sia... i wan to go message again and its damn cheap... lik $20 plus for 2 hrs la.. hmm... ok den went back to slp cos 3rd day another early day.. went back around 2 plus.

3rd day... wake up again at 6 plus 7.. super tired.. went for white river rafting and elephant trekking.. nt bad.. quite fun to play actually.. but the elephant scares me haha for 1 min i thought the elephant wanted to throw us down haha... hmm after tat went the waterfall to take photo.. damn cold sia the water... but nice also.. den after all tat around 3 plus went back hotel... went for some shopping again with the rest of the guys and den around 7 plus went airport and finally home sweet home =)

guess wat.. after all tis activities... i am lik a lobster nw... my back super pain... nv had tis kind of burn for so long liao lol... ok la gt to slp liao.. dunno y cant upload some photos here... but nvm gt it at my facebook.. =)

2010-03-25T21:49:00.002+08:00

a bad day for my fto.. nvm sir.. i support u haha... after tml i will be flying to puket.. hope nth goes wrong there hah... hmm...

sry for the misunderstand... i muz learn to admit my mistake but well at least u get to knw me better nw haha... hmm .......

everything seems lik it juz happen yesterday... well realli miss de days we had but... i cant deny that i still cant get over the matter.. hope everything cool down sooner or later... but things will nv be the same anymore... i guess....

2010-03-22T10:51:00.002+08:00

yesh puket trip 27-29.. cant wait sia.. hmm hopefully everything comes out fine haha.. tis is lik my first flight after p5 lik tat... damn long... think alot things also change already.... haha... super mountain tortise... oh man my fren is gg for the sammi concert... =( i cannt go.... haiz... sad..

2010-03-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

today is de first time i feel so unwilling to put it on her hand... she is nt in de wrong.. but we need to go by the book.. feel so sad when we hear her story.. i can understand hw she feel.. tat time of shame i guess she forever also wun forget... tats wat she say too.. tat kind of pain she had in her heart when tears keep flowing down her eyes.... i can onli console her... but i believe she is strong.. sooner or later bad guys will have their own punishment... hold on k... for ur kids, ur future n ur parents... u onli lose to the law he knw better den u... dun wry u are a strong woman... juz hold on abit more........

2010-03-16T00:09:00.002+08:00

haiz... in service day tml... there goes our off days..... -.- had a scary case... welll... my sir say i am quite lucky to get tis kind of case shortly after i join -.- lol... luckily she is saved... no more k...

i think i shld get a bf soon haha... so i can talk to when something happen... at least some1 i can disturb as n when i like haha.....

2010-03-11T17:28:00.002+08:00

wah tired shift... super tired for tis nite shift... lol jia lat 1 more month to endure... grr... so busy shag sia.. till i dunno wat to write nw... juz so many things but duno hw to put it..alright juz let it be... plants n zombie.. lame but fun haha..

2010-03-08T01:30:00.002+08:00

fucking chi-na... realli make me damn pissed tis time round... cb... i nv being so vulgar be4 in my blog but they realli pissed me off... i mother also scold... dare to fight here n quarrel in de middle of the night... fuck... either they leave my house or i leave.. knn.. realli cannt take it anymore already... i rather stay outside nw... seriously... i dunno who to turn to.. onli myself to depend on... i dunwan them to ruin my future....

2010-03-04T21:41:00.002+08:00

days passes juz lik tat... n its being so long..... i knw tat i told u a story be4 and i promise u if there is a day it realli happens we still can be frens.... but... sorry.. i cant do it... i have to break my promises... u wun knw hw it felt till u are in tis position... the more i see the more hurt i am.... i knw it cant be avoided.. but i choose to avoid... dun blame me....

2010-03-03T23:03:00.002+08:00

woots.. tired man.. super... went for a fave event today... its actually a community volunteer job for ppl tat need help.. although today is nth much.. juz be emcee for de event. hope to have more meaningful event coming up too... today realli super tired.. after nite shift went for the event.. hmm support my FTO haha... well it is worth it too.. gt a nice dinner from DTL haha... thx sir for the treat... den had ben n jerry from my fren.. =) sinful dinner cum dessert.. jia lat.. time to run on my next morning shift... lol... alright i gt to slp nw!! nite ppl...

2010-03-01T21:24:00.003+08:00

oh man.. feeling abt emo rite nw.. super miss de days we had after looking at r10 POC... days tat we will nv forget.. de good n de bad.. but they are super united la... serious shit... we can nv be lik them... haiz... y.... if i can cry.. i will cry... realli miss my bed... my messy cupboard.. blk b #04-38.. so wat if ten ppl squeeze tgt.. i juz lik de way every1 is doing... all gt their standard routine.. i miss them... nw i am realli lik wat my FI say.. lik baby lik tat.. i wanted to be 1 nw...

the pain is still there.. y?? dun seems to be recovering... will it even recover???

2010-02-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

oh man... no more puket for me haiz... sian!!! cannt change name.. nw onli see the ticket hw much if top up alot i am nt going.. hmm... going to be alone at home again.. -.- mother is nt coming back often -.- wth.. leave me alone at home.. so means next time i also can dun go home already la... -.-
complicated ar.. wat a complicated world... will i be able to achieved my marriage age?? lol 3 more yrs to go... lik too fast also hor for nw.. hmm... wanted to faster get a flat of my own already... sometimes a soft heart seems to ruin everything...

2010-02-24T20:10:00.002+08:00

haha i got this from my little cousin blog... cute hor... nth to do today so i briefly went to see their blog and wow amazing haha.. they are lik more hip den me.. lik duh.. haha... ok i admit i am old.. generation gap is getting bigger.. dun realli understand wat they are writing haha... but well it juz look so diff when i think back last time they are juz so innocent haha but now... er wild?? haha... alright they have all grown up.... was wondering hw will it be like when i am lik 40 plus and they will be lik me nw... hmm... interesting hah... haha

2010-02-23T23:55:00.002+08:00

had a nice chat with my FTO yesterday... haha he ask me whether i believe in miracle.. well n he tell me abt his love story... haha.. from his story i can feel de pain he had be4.. hmm.. so do i believe in miracle?? i told him i will onli believe if onli it happens to me... maybe tats de reason y i dun lik to watch taiwan drama... its always so damn sweet tat it cant possible be happening.. de more u watch the more u wan tat kind of impossible romance haha.. well maybe after finding for so long the best person is always next to u... its just tat we tends to look so far away tat we often overlooked the best things in life...

2010-02-22T01:11:00.002+08:00

so long nv blog le.. its time to update... but lik so much thing to update.... cos so much things happen.. being damn busy too... hmm... maybe i shld step down for sometime... i am trying my best to salvage our frenship but y he cant understand?? putting it in a nice way already... juz hope tat he cherish wat he is having now... dun let others affect his relationship with his gf... guys always wan to have best of both worlds?? but it cant happen... i dunno wat can i do to make u understand further... but seriously its realli damn hard to find some1 who u knw is the 1.. lik wat my FTO says... juz cherish the present.. n u will get the future... pls pls pls i hate third parties... so dun get me involve in third parties... hmm.... right dearest buddy?? haha..

2010-02-13T22:55:00.003+08:00

sad or wat... eve of cny??? lik tat?? i might as well go work... i think even more happening... haiz... reunion dinner... nv even get to eat with my mother.. -.- dunno wth is she doing -.- haiz
1 word.. sad... i dun even feel tat today is de eve... juz another normal day..

2010-02-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

cny coming le.... but lik no much mood to celebrate also.. juz another normal yr..
define friends: wat are friends for? well.. i guess it is realli hard for a true fren to come by... heard from radio yesterday nite abt a fren misuse her trust... which all along she thought that they are very gd frens.. ha.. tats sounds abit lik me hah.. onli de senario abit diff.. well.. to be there for 1 another whenever u need some1.. actually its bullshit.. hw to do it? if u are working.. den ur gd fren need u suddenly by her/his side can u juz throw ur job aside??? u cant rite? cos its ur rice bowl.. so wat is the by ur side always?? nah.. wat matters most is the heart.. time tells.. or when things happen... u will see with ur own eyes... i thought we could.. but its hard.. but still i wan to thank tis some1 for de fun times we had be4.. hw i wish it nv happen be4..

define love: tis is realli hard to define... hmm.. to me love is very simple... some ppl say both of same character is better nt to be tgt.. some ppl also say ppl of diff character is hard to get along as well... so which is which... hmm.. its all abt feeling i guess.. today u might love de person alot.. maybe tml u will hate de person lik hell.. i thought if u lik the person u will wan to see him/her everyday?? hmm maybe tats my thinking... so till nw i still dunno wat is love haha... some1 maybe can explain to me...

2010-02-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

nice shift today =) enjoyed de whole journey.. cos its a peaceful shift haha... pls hope tml it will be de same too.... =) shared alot of things with my team ppl today.. they super funny sia haha... xin yuan faster recover n come back acc me if nt i become de onli gal again in frc lol...

thought it was over long ago... hmm i dunwan to be the next.. haha..

2010-02-04T19:21:00.002+08:00

wohoo first lesson of bike today =D.. i am so chao ta due to de sun -.- but fun eh bike... but can see its super dangerous ah... the gal beside me fall down so many times... i see le also heart pain.. i myself also fall down 1 time lucky we wear guard.. if nt jia lat... i wonder will i really dare to ride on de road next time anot?? hmm.... well see hw it goes la...

2010-02-03T19:49:00.002+08:00

woots... already 2 days for work. so far so gd =) ohoh i begin to love my team as well haha.. get to knw nice frens too... happening team too haha... all lik to joke.. sometimes i dun even knw when they are talking real -.- haha... well tats hw we ease our work stress i guess... oh ya might be going overseas with my team next month!! wohoo.. get to go oversea again haha.. going puket.. hope de ticket still can buy but hope its nt tat expensive...

2010-02-02T10:03:00.002+08:00

tonite will be my first actual nite shift... quite excited... heard tat my FTO is quite strict.. jia lat.. oh ya n i left my file at de counter -.- die dunno will get lost anot.. anyway.. so far so gd.. i like my team.. they are all quite friendly... hmm i guess i will be gg back to gardens often again.. lol..

2010-01-31T22:45:00.002+08:00

haha went majong-ing with gs n bao n mike.. lik tat also can win.. but abit onli la.. very gd already cos very long nv play le.. hmm tml first day of work.. hope it will be fun... shld i walk or bus there?? 15 mins if walk... hmm... ok wish me luck den... oh ya BUDDY GD LUCK FOR UR TP!!! pls pass...... haha

2010-01-30T23:27:00.002+08:00

i had a bad day today.. haiz... shall nt mention further... so damn pissed..... argh... everything is nt going my way...
anyway hope to start work soon cos at least i got things to do... workin is de best to forget everything and start afresh...
hmm i guess sometimes its nt up to me to choose cos i am nt able to choose too.. haha wat to do.. its reality.. wat is meant to happen will happen.. wat is nt meant to happen no matter wat u do also wun happen... so i shall juz take 1 step count 1 step... see wat will happen ba... but i guess once its over... its hard to start all over again...

2010-01-29T23:03:00.002+08:00

gt my posting.. hmm lucky is near me.. transport nt a problem hehe... hope de environment suits me... can u believe.. on my second day of work i gt IPPT -.- lucky still manage to get silver.. ok la at least run in division gt money take haha... tats hw practical we are.. sat sun off wohoo...

went to chill with 2 of my best friends... haha they both bring partner... whens mine sia... -.- haha.. anyway had a gd catch up with them... i am glad they are doing gd... hope few yrs down de road when we still had this kind of catching up, there are more interesting things to share =)

gs: JJ change alot for u rite.. can see sia.. better cherish him haha... tis shows hw much he loves u liao.. no more complaining he no time for u... haha..

2010-01-27T01:24:00.002+08:00

i dunwan to drive anymore liao... i rather take cab den having a car n always quarrel with my mother... i dunno y in her mind is always money.... is there still other things other den money??? she always think she is right.. i still thought tat i borrow car from my father den i can bring her go eat cos her bday coming.. if nt i rather nt to borrow but den she lik tis... forget it... i am nt gg to borrow car anymore... juz giv her money can le juz treat as i had treated her the bday treat.. since all she wan is money... everytime i gt the heart to do something she will always think otherwise... forget it... let her think wat she wan.. as long as i knw i had done my part as her daughter can le.. if she thinks tat i nv do anything for her as a daughter den wat had she done for me all tis yrs??? nt even a stable house? all de house is rent.. for fuck?? den everytime need to worry no money to pay tis pay tat den use me to vent her anger.. realli sick n tired of all tis nonsense...

2010-01-24T03:08:00.005+08:00

juz some random pictures from last nite.. lol realli super steady sia they all dunno drink hw many buckets of beer -.- crazy 1...oh ya i simply love tis pic man.... i cried on tat moment... i believe every1 is feeling de same way as i do... dun forget our annual meeting ar...

who am i to u?

2010-01-23T14:09:00.002+08:00

sian... going to stay at home again... no more show to watch liao.... hmmm.... boring..... haiz

2010-01-23T13:41:00.003+08:00

1234 left right left.. 4321 POC LO!!! haha... finally.. no more left right left.. no more barrack cleaning... no more morning PT.. no more morning flag raising tat i always fell asleep... no more water parade tat is so troublesome.. no more scoldings from FI n OC... no more bathing in cold water.. no more booking in on sunday... alot alot of no more... BUT... which also means tat no more fun session in barrack.. no more bathing tgt n complaining abt the cold water.. no more sharing a bed and talking in de middle of the night... no more creating trouble tgt as a whole.. no more being rebellious tgt as a whole... no more lesson tgt... no more celebration tgt in rec room... etc etc.... 8 months plus... we see each other lik almost everyday... though there is unhappiness be4.. but its the stages of life... bound to happen.. the true training starts now...

rock on r7.....

2010-01-17T13:36:00.002+08:00

yay.. i bought aino... =) damn nice la.. but abit ex... nvm.. i will earn it back.. haha... last book in today.... finally... last week le... challenges awaits us out there... ok nth much to talk abt.. used to the life i am having now already...

2010-01-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

haiz kind of disappointed sia... but luckily i nv realli pin high hopes on it if nt more disappointed... but nvm.. can pass out can le... hope everything goes on smoothly for the last week can le.. finally our last week in tracom... woots... come to think of it... quite miss de days we had... especially we all kanna punish... gt all de shit lik nobody else... jialat squad... haha... think le also can laugh... well.... wats bitter to endure is sweet to remember... for we onli will remember and laugh at our most jialat days... right R7?

dunno wat posting i will get.. hope i get the 1 i choose... hmm.... well we gain something n lose something.. tats the circle of life...

hope to have a photo with u during POC =)

2010-01-09T20:46:00.002+08:00

haiz... i saw the true colours of the nature... hmm... well.. i duno hw to comment.. dun wish to comment anything too.. i guess choosing nt to knw anything is better nw... wat for ruining something tat is precious for something nt worth while... or rather does it worth it?? i can onli say.. everything happens for a reason...

2010-01-03T17:58:00.002+08:00

woots went prawning haha... prawning with wenli is fun man.. haha... wonder hw is de worm with her now haha.. we started prawning at 12 plus midnight lol.. cos had a happening event be4 tat... but ok la all ends well.. lucky for her hah.... sian going back camp le... but ok la can save money.. cant wait for 12th now lol...

total 11 prawns =)

me n de grandpa prawn..

aggresive wenli with de grandpa prawn

haha she say sibei sian pose

2010-01-01T22:13:00.002+08:00

i am super super tired..... eyes is lik closing liao... but let me finish de blog first hah... hmm happy new yr every1!! =D count down is fun.. we had a super fast ride haha... (dangerous.. sry if i scared u ar wenli n xiao bai haha..) we used onli 3 mins from amk to serangoon gardens haha.. we are damn rushed la.. run to de car also... lol... n guess wat zhun zhun by 12 i reach ice3 door step lol.. still gt parking nice nice for me juz outside de cafe... damn zhun.. haha.. but at least its quite high la.. fun!! i think de onli thing is i miss de fireworks ba... hmm..

reach hm around 5 plus den 9 plus wake up to go my auntie house at woodlands.. tats de prob with having car.. u need to fetch ppl around -.- so tiring... den went dinner at bottle tree.. haha went prawning be4 tat.. today no luck sia.. 1 hr 1 prawn... somemore de prawn come very last min.. be4 i return my rod.. -.- but lucky its big haha.. i think my cousin took photo of it.. oh ya.. i think my cousin gd news is near la haha.. her bf treat her damn gd n sweet... waiting for ur wedding soon hah... haha... ok super tired gg to slp now.. by right is going club with wenli they all but i think i have no energy to play now lol.. nite ppl!!

2009-12-30T19:15:00.002+08:00

juz came back from batam.. hmm who says batam is boring?? haha depends on hw u plan.. tis time rd all thx to li bing for a fulfilling trip =) we make use of 3 full days ...

day1 we had to wake up super early for the ferry and we reach there around 10 plus which is batam time 9plus onli.. batam time is 1 hr slower lol.. after tat went to hav breakfast there den we went to shop at a shopping center at town area.. forget the name already.. hard to spell anyway lol.. certain things is cheap onli.. nt realli all cheap some after u convert to sing dollars its also almost the same price.. after tat met some nice family.. so they offered to had dinner tgt at dalema.. de crab nt bad.. super big... hmm... quite cheap also... at least cheaper den singapore.. lol..

day 2 wake up to had our breakfast.. n den our long waited spa.. haha... de message is gd!! lol realli... i love the shoulder message... relaxing... but the onli thing is i had to be naked when the person message for me lol.. so means the lady saw my everything.. quite shy la.. its my first time spa...3 hrs relaxing... i am alone so i hope next time can go with friends.. will nt be tat bored when doing de foam bath... hmm... den went shopping at batam no1 mall, the batam center.. tats where we shop for alot of things.. after tat went dinner at golden prawn restuarant.. batam no1. too.. tats wat de taxi uncle say... ok la nt bad i love de lala.. after tat went back n slp.. super tired lol.. oh be4 tat went to see some night scenery.. nt bad.. quite nice also..

day3.. last day.. nth much.. juz went for some sight seeing day scenery... the famous bridge for batam... there is 5 but we onli see 2 cos de rest very far.. nt enough time le.. next time ba... lol.. but its very nice.. =) den went to try de coconut drink.. damn fresh and big.. nice =) den we proceed back to singapore!!

overall thumbs up!! =) nice trip.. next time i am going to re-dang =) some water sports activites =)

2009-12-28T00:21:00.002+08:00

yay going batam tml.. i mean later.. haha... very early sia... hopefully can wake up.. hmm... dunno wat to blog for today... oh oh alvin n chip munks2 is super nice lol.. touching... go watch nice..

complete my first map of L4D lol.. scary.. ok la getting fun... nw i knw y ppl lik to play.. but i am still nt gd at it.. haha..

hopefully things change better after my batam trip =) tc alright...

2009-12-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

went to val house to see bailey.. haha super cute la omg.. damn small -.- but hyper.. cute... =)

see damn small rite omg..

lik carrying baby lik tat..

after tat went for poly gathering dinner.. ok la atmosphere abit weird but after awhile seems lik we can talk lol... but of course gt some is super quiet la... dunno hw many yrs i had nt seen some ppl already.. lol no much changes.. i think me gt de biggest change.. from long hair to short hair.. lol..

2009-12-25T13:58:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS PPL!!! =) another yr going to pass soon... tats realli damn fast... no much wish but i guess i am going to leave it till my new yr resolution.. =) went turtle house to count down with her n friends.. ok la although no much count down but still considered count down? lol.. stayed till morning 6 plus.. woo.. tired... yes.. going batam soon... =)

losing it bit by bit... tats de best solution...

2009-12-23T22:18:00.003+08:00

bye bye sony aino =( see u in another 2 months time =( haiz..... spent too much le... cant even get my new phone now... sianz.... nvm i shall bear with another 2 months.. save up n buy...

went shopping with gs n bao... wah very long nv go shopping with them le... n bought alot of things... mostly new yr clothes... hmm... nv shop till so tired be4 for so long le... lol... but fun eh onli wallet nt fun... initially is suppose to buy my phone.. but after buying this n tat i guess i gt to wait for my new phone le... lol.. went for buffet first be4 anything.. hungry...

orangy smile =)

2009-12-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

YUHOO.. HOLIDAY LO!! finally... no 1 will disturb our leave nw (cross fingers) lol.. a busy holiday for me... but i am happy cos at least everything is pack for me and time passes very fast... =) christmas is coming... spent so much on this christmas... but nvm... once in a while... gonna get my new phone sooon =) tis wed haha... hmm went to play L4D 2 today.. ok la i am nt afraid anymore haha..

2009-12-20T02:25:00.003+08:00

wohoo... watched princess and the frog... haha.. i dun mind being a frog too.. fairy tale hah... haha... nice movie.. i like... the song as well.. nice.. meaningful.. u get wat u give.. hmm... niceee.. den went to ps after tat.... guess wat stuck in de arcade for lik 1 hr plus? lol at 1 machine... see hw jialat... lol.. but we won de war... after lik spending so much err effort?? lol... i shall upload de photo... n u all guess hw much this three little things cost...

tadaaa $62 lol...

we are juz this close to getting... but it refused to drop argh... we spent lik 1 hr plus for this

concentrate

den went to meet val after for dunno hw long since our last meet up... went giraffe for some drinks and went play lan.. haha played L4D... i swear its disgusting.. -.- gt shocked for lik dunno hw many times.. -.- scary... ok la maybe will still try to play again but i still cannt overcome de scary creatures... lol...

2009-12-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

=) happy.. haha had a very fun day with my squad mates... we started off with avatar omg its fucking fucking nice lol... pls go watch if nt u all will regret i am serious.. lol... den went to eat at dragon gate haha... wat a nice name hah... eat lik dunno hw many hundreds of prawns? haha ok la nt so exagerate but yea still damn full... but wallet realli 1 hole sia... lol... still gt so many presents haven buy -.- die... there is a crazy guy dancing break dance outside vivo entrance lol.. damn funny.. li bing still video it down.. haha.. alright a fun day overall.. =) hope to have more of this outing soon... next next sentosa... hehe.. oh ya gonna get my sony aino soon... yay..... hope i still have spare cash to last till buy tat phone..... we took alot of nice photos too lol... n tat zi wei n vicky went to watch avatar again in 3d -.- crazy la... see tis is hw nice it is.. so dun wait further.... woohooo...

nw i understand... n i am glad.. seriously... haha..

2009-12-17T01:54:00.002+08:00

woots... decision changes again... maybe PCG? hmmm.... dunno confused.. but after visiting all de division my decision seems to shake already.. hmm wat to do neh.. i also dunno... finally r7 is nt having anymore bad luck.. our luck started to change haha... today book out is smooth n every1 is happy.. including our FI =) haha... my 2 weeks holiday started wohoo... =) going to enjoy every moments sia... starting from today haha.. went to drink with vicky n gang... first time see him so high sia haha... dman funny la... shld hav taken photo of him la... haha... the selsha was gd.... overall quite fun.. but if more ppl come maybe will be more fun.. haha..

POP soon lo.... i think its realli great tat we endure till tis far sway squad haha...
shld i go batam?? maybe i shld hor to relax myself... juz throw all de troubles behind... dun think of so much.. n enjoy my weekend.. =)

2009-12-14T15:27:00.002+08:00

finally attachment is over... nite shift actually i see more things.. but its tiring.. so gonna get used to it sia.. hmm today horoscope tell me say tat today i will have to do some serious thinking and decide on my decision.. i might alos need to isolate myself to think better... lol true... maybe i shld do some serious thinking of certain things now..

2009-12-13T11:52:00.002+08:00

today last day of attachment.. finally no need travel so far le... so tats hw we work n now i knw y ppl lik us tends to get gastric -.- i experience de same thing too... alamak n it is suffering sia... hmm... nvm hope tonite can hav more experience...

the things tat we dread is happening hah.. u nv keep ur promise.. am i in de wrong? y u keep blaming me?

2009-12-10T20:17:00.002+08:00

finally... we have walked tis far... last phase of our camp life... attachment will be tml... hope everything goes smoothly for every1 of us.. oh ya we will be having POP haha lik i wished for since de first few months.. finally something gd tat i see coming true... for R7...

tis few weeks is quite sway for us too.. cos we got into trouble again.. i dunno y but its nt the week for us.. haiz... 4 more book out... hope no more trouble pls...... realli wish to end all this happily... cos i believe it will be the most memorable thing when we look back once we passed out.. whether its de gd or de bad things tat happen to us....

2009-12-06T10:42:00.001+08:00

tired... realli... alot of things is hard to explain..

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2009-11-28T16:10:00.001+08:00

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2009-11-28T11:43:00.002+08:00

yo ppl.. alot updates to be made.. hmm lets see.. lets start from thurs nite haha.. went club with turtle n friends and guess wat some1 is drunk n puke lik nobody business haha.. definitely nt me... lousy... haha.. finally my turn to say ppl lousy haha... n went till 6am -.- super tired n de next day i woke up at lik 10am? n went breakfast with ferlin n gs.. they came to my house n wake me up sia lol cos i put my phone to silent n i forget i am suppose to meet them at tis time lol.. den went ice3 again at nite..

had a nice talk with darling vic after her work.. realli feels nice la to realli talk to her n say out things.. haha n tat realli helps alot.. at least i knw some solutions to my problem.. i guess i knw which solution to take already.. cos she given me lik 3 n i need to choose... but its realli very hard to choose hmm... she given me 1 week grace haha... but i am still scared to make certain decision cos might nt be de correct 1?

guess i am going to juz lock myself at home tis few days but it juz feel so weird tat i nv go out la.. lik so boring.. hmm.. i am mentally tired but physical dun allow me to slp i dunno y also... slping realli waste time la maybe i am thinking since i am out i shld nt waste my time slping n do something more meaningful since camp has so much time to slp...

2009-11-22T18:33:00.002+08:00

went drinking place with some of my squad mates yesterday.. ok la although abit boring but still enjoyable... oh be4 tat i went to watch raging phoniex with turtle her fren n eliz.. damn nice la de show haha.. her first n second show did not disappoint me.. =) *claps*

i think i am experiencing something.. i dunno y but it juz happen to me suddenly.. hmm... its better to be loved den to loved tats true.. anyway i shld juz... hmm.... but its hard.. haha..

ok la i think my holding of liquor is better now haha.. after so many glasses i actually feel nth.. till i take de stupid cab -.- de uncle drive damn fast n i reached home i vomited -.- by right i am feeling alright 1... dunno y also... ok la gonna prepare for book in le.. n i think i am addicted to a game in facebook lol...

2009-11-21T00:38:00.002+08:00

today after went gardens.. i walk home tgt with danial.. haha he is funny and he told me abt his love story... n he tell me wat love means... he said "love is to care for tat person, to buy the person fav thing and make him/her happy" hmm... simple yet hard to fulfil? cos alot ppl cant do tat... i dunno y also.. well i guess love is suppose to be simple yet complicated... haiz... it reminds me of some thing... dunno whether is right or wrong but i also dunno wat to do...

2009-11-17T23:36:00.003+08:00

i am lik super duper tired la... -.- tml still need to wake up so early for book in.. -.- dying sooooon.... went to npcc camp yesterday n today.. yesterday is boring but today is fun haha we had bowling n rock climbing... wah de rock climbing nearly wan my life sia lol... i realli used allll my power to climb.. my hand is lik super pain nw lol... tml comfirm worse... but i succeeded standing at de first chk point of the rock lol.. i realli tell myself to reach sia.. so many cadets looking cannt throw face lol... realli is determination above all... lol.. n breakfast for de day we had... nasi lemak, lontong, carrot cake, mee siam, soya bean and you tiao... 4 person eat 6 person share sia... damn full... lol

going to reach halfway soon i guess..

2009-11-16T00:36:00.003+08:00

hmm .. wat to blog for today lei.. oh ya watched paranomal activity.. scary sia... lol nv thought its so scary... nvm.. shldnt say nw.. going camp tml haha... going to have a nice PT on tues morning...

went chilling with val n joshua.. it was fun haha n i nv knw tat martell is tat nice haha... going to hav 1 of tat next time... onli abit headache nw.. tml going fishing with my ah gong better make up to him.. spend quite alot tis week omg.. lol dunno hw to survive now.. nvm juz see hw it goes...

2009-11-14T23:21:00.002+08:00

yes ar!! apec is over.. wohoo.. tiring event but more to go -.- anyway nice experience.. n we endure it through... well done... lol.. get to knw alot of nice ppl.. n things... nt as bad as i think nw.. haha... guess wat my LG phone price dropped wahaha... no prob buying now... so i am gonna get it soon.. haha..

2009-11-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

had a filling day... went to sakura buffet with neoy n had a large share of salmon.. lol... ok tml going work again... super sian... screening cars... opening barrier for them...standing from 9 to 9... but hope braydon n mass is around to keep me accompany.. =) cos they made my day pass fast wahaha.. 2 more working days..... n hope everything goes as wat bing say... hope everything turns out well for us... =)

oh n i seriously dunno hw to differentiate from real n fake already... wats is real? wat is fake? maybe differentiate from wrong n right is much more easier... alright.. tired.. nt caring anymore... maybe juz let it be...

2009-11-12T02:28:00.002+08:00

wah shag man... 2 days of standing -.- 12 hrs.. though gt break in between but still damn tired... n onli few hrs of slp be4 next reporting time... well i am nt de onli 1 though... every1 is doing de same.. but y we always kanna de sway thing-.- most deployed time... but lucky today i had a fun ppl attached to my station which makes my day pass faster.. =) i also gt alot thing to ask but haha leave some for other days.. we stil gt 2 more days to talk de whole day lol.. lucky tml off.. so damn tired..

2009-11-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

wah.. last min news... gonna be deployed for 4 days -.- hope dun get jia lat duty.. i will be damn sian... tiring life is coming.. gt to cancel all my plans alamak... ah gong so disappointed when i say cant bring him go fishing le... haiz.. will make up to him 1 day...

2009-11-08T18:35:00.002+08:00

treasure ur life.. every action u do might affect others also... ppl impt to u or ppl nt impt to u.. its still de same.. i am always a call away... i might nt be there right away but as long as wat u do is nt foolish i will support u.... u had some1 tat is always beside u also... u can always turn to her..

2009-10-31T19:23:00.003+08:00

hmm... de first long weekend for us... dunno is gd thing or bad thing... lol... de person tat i nv hear from very long suddenly called me up.. lol.. hope u are doing well.. glad tat things go well for u.. haha..

ok back to camp thing.. lol i wonder is number 7 cursed? seems lik everythings are going wrong for us lol.. realli everything... i cant even count hw many incident happen to us nw.. maybe we shld call r sway instead of r7 hah... lol... realli feel bad for wat happen to our FI.. haiz wat to do... who call us sway... but i think things always happen for a reason.. maybe we will realise soon.... ahh so bored.. gonna find things to do already...

2009-10-31T19:23:00.002+08:00

alamak... rain so big hw to go out -.- haiz.... when in camp dunwan rain.. when book out den rain till so big... if in camp we gt this kind of rain i think we can get barrack leave all de way sia.... shiok... -.- but purposely book out den rain... dampen our spirit -.- sian.. dling XDO... hope it can works... den i can play my fav game again wahaha...

2009-10-31T01:10:00.002+08:00

ahhh.. apec is coming... duty going to start soon... super sian.. haiz... nvm at least get to do some real ground training.... oh man i love our CSI lesson.. lol so cool la... make me tempted now... hmmm..... but de thoughts of seeing de kind of photo tat we were shown in real life i guess tat giv me second thoughts lol.... wat to do... ya gt a t shirt run lik hell for our FI lol gd taste turtle.. hope he dun make us run lik hell... haha... n finally he accepted our friend request... n some of his pic quite funny lol... guess he realli train very hard for his body lik this now... woots.... well... ok la wonder who is de gorgeous lady tat he said to jia wen.. -.- lol

2009-10-25T03:28:00.003+08:00

its being so long since i realli work in ice3 le.. today i am lik going back to my last time life... working has nv being so familiar be4... haha.. esp working with my partner... everything seems to be at de tips of my finger.. it feels gd =) although working till wee hours n de busy hours.. but de fun is always there... every1 shack out tgt haha... ok la once in a while get back tis feeling is gd... oh ya i went macrithie reservior(dunno hw to spell) today to make some delivery with bao n gs.. guess wat we saw? a big python sia.. n some1 is catching tat python.. damn big la i upload the photo for u all to see.. i think they spend 30 mins to catch it...

2009-10-24T01:38:00.003+08:00

back to square 1....

i knw u care abt me... but i still hope u understand.. be4 i am in tis job i am already a nite owl.. i lik to stay out late... is nt because i dun need rest.. every1 need rest... but because last time i dun hav the kind of freedom tat i wan now... now since i have it i will wan to enjoy it who knws after we pass out tis kind of life will nt be happening le.. cos we will be very shack... caring n understanding is 2 diff thing.. i like de care u had for me but i still hope u understand me more.. u say u wun restrict my freedom but i dunno y i still feel abit restricted... is nt tat u force me to stay at home or wat but ur persuading for me to stay at home makes me feel restricted... i dun blame u for tat cos i knw u juz wan me to rest more but tats not wat i wan... i need accompany n ya tats abt it.....

2009-10-19T13:45:00.002+08:00

guess wat... i click on my past post.. july 2007... 2 yrs ago... i can still remember hw i feel tat nite.. de touch is still there... if time realli can turn back i guess tats de time i wan to go back to... i am tired with all de changes in my life... maybe tats fate... but wheres de destiny?

things changes... but if any1 asked ".........." i will ans yes... its de best thing tat ever happen to me... envy? hell yes.. maybe last time ppl envy me but now is my turn to envy others for having a fren lik u... haha... realli hope u get de happiness u wan my dear =)